It's been ok lately, i cant complain much.But still.... My fucking asshole cousin came back to my house,i wish i could kill him for hurting my mother. But being a kid i gotta shut my mouth and deal with it. I hate not being able to speak my fuckin mind, this blog is probally the olny other place besides school, and i still can't say what i want there. anyway i've been busy as hell with homework,practicing gutair, and a whole bunch of other shit. Dealing with all this shit i've felt so tired lately. I feel old and alone sometime and i don't know what to do, i feel like leaving this world at times but i've learned to deal, even if i have to let it out by crying or on this blog, at least it's getting out. I never really have a minute to my damn self anymore. Well This week i got a sleep over to go to and a 3 day trip to go on. So yea my "me time" is limited. Anyway these 2 guys like me at school and i don't know what to do, with all this shit going on i don't know if i can deal at the moment. Oh god i need help i feel like i'm slowly dying inside, everybody's always fighting and i feel i'm the cause of it. Maybe i should just leave and never come back, fuck it all!! But i can't, i just cant. my friends are what help me hang onto my exsistence, my sanity, and even that's starting to fail. This place is the olny place i feel i can express myself and i'm glad i got this shit out but it'll never go away, the dark feeling i feel right now. I feel broken in different peices at the moment, will i ever put them back together?or am i another lost cause....
1 comment:
*sniff* we're on the same level. *hugs*
and what's with you and the song "One & Only"? NO MORE!.. eh, maybe not. it is a good song.
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